Unsure if i’m depressed or trying to take control of my life. My life looks a lot different than i expected it to.
it feels like my life is almost perfect in every way, and im grateful for it- i love my apartment i love my little family i love my partner i love my child i love my job -but everyday i feel so much anxiety and some boredom and a lack of will to do basic tasks like clean up or take care of myself. but yet on the outside ( i think?) i come across as very functional. but for some reason now, owning things brings me a lot of stress.
i have had an interest in minimalism as a concept for several years now, despite my history of being a maximalist artist type. but coupled with some depression symptoms i can’t really tell if the decluttering i’ve been doing is productive or destructive. at home when i’m not doomscrolling i resort to getting rid things- ill get rid of my paintings, ive rehomed several small pets (reptiles) and almost rehomed my cat, ive gotten rid of so many clothes and i swear that im just trying to make things easier on myself because ill have less to maintain, but i think its possible that i might be punishing myself in some way, if i look at it that way.. it almost feels compulsive.
i know i should see a therapist but i wanted to know, has anyone else experienced something similar?
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